hold your head high, heavy heart...

Mon, 02 May 2005 23:47:39 GMT

♥

ill be your best kept secret and your biggest mistake...

Fri, 29 Apr 2005 21:13:23 GMT

okay so thing have been nothing short of amazing. last weekend was my moms wedding then prom. which was awesome. so then this week was state house deal and the concert and all sorts of fun stuff. and i got to see josh's mommy last night whom i love dearly. so yeah and this weekend is full of amazing things to do with amazing people and next week is underoath!

im lucky to have kids like you certian state house kids i can talk to about these things...
love you all.
♥

I miss the way you sing low
So I can't hear your voice over
The radio in my car
But you know every word they say
You knew you just the right thing to say of
Distance ripped us father and farther and farther away
I'll see you soon
If you're coming back this way again
Come back from California
All of us here in Florida
Are starved for your attention
We're starved for your attention
Come back from California
All of us here in Florida
Are starved for your attention
We're starved for your attention
Maybe I fell too fast
Maybe I pushed you away
Now you're gone and I'm afriad
That you're never coming back this away again
I'll see you soon
If you'll come back here
I'll see you soon
Just say that you want to see me too
Come back from California
All of us here in Florida
Are starved for your attention
We starve for your attention
Come back from California
All of us here in Florida
Are starved for your attention
We're starved for your attention
You know I won't mind if you
Monopolize all my time
I won't say a thing at all
I won't say a word no
So come back from California
Come back from California

Thu, 28 Apr 2005 00:56:48 GMT

I'll take care of you oh
Have faith that when you call my name
I'll be there

It was a straight faced lie
I believed
It was a straight faced lie
You would ever leave me
But for now I'll keep believing your words
And soon enough my strength will return

I'll take care of you oh
Have faith that when you call my name
I'll be there
I'll be right there
So keep breathing oh
Keep that sweet heart of yours beating
I'll be right there
I'll be right there

Let me draw the blinds for you
You can watch the sunset from
The bed in your hospital room
Until you're sleeping
I'm sure
I don't understand how I found a love so pure

I'll take care of you oh
Have faith that when you call my name
I'll be there
I'll be right there
So keep breathing oh
Keep that sweet heart of yours beating
I'll be right there
I'll be right there

Don't lift a finger
Let me show you
The only way to let this go
Don't lift a finger
Let me hold you
Hold you here until the pain it has all gone

I'll take care of you oh
Have faith that when you call my name
I'll be there
I'll be right there
So keep breathing oh
Keep that sweet heart of yours beating
I'll be right there
I'll be right there

I'll take care of you oh
Have faith that when you call my name
I'll be there
I'll be right there
So keep breathing oh
Keep that sweet heart of yours beating
I'll be right there
I'll be right there
I'll be right there
I'll be right there

Mon, 25 Apr 2005 21:34:40 GMT

I spent most of last night dragging this lake
for the corpses of all my past mistakes
sell me out- the jokes on you
we are salt- you are the wound
empty another bottle
and let me tear you to pieces
this is me wishing you
into the worst situations
i'm the kind of kid
that can't let anything go
but you wouldn't know a good thing
if it came up and slit your throat

your remorse hasn't fallen on deaf ears
rather ones that just don't care
because i know
that you're in between arms somewhere
next to heartbeats
where you shouldn't dare sleep
I'll teach you a lesson
for keeping secrets from me

take your taste back
peel back your skin
and try to forget how it feels inside
you should try saying no once in a while
oh once in a while
oh once in a while

and did you hear the news?
i could dissect you
and gut you on this stage
not as elequent as i may have imagined
but it will get the job done (you're done)
every line is plotted and designed
to leave you standing
on your bedroom window's ledge
and everyone else that it hits
that it gets to
is nothing more than collateral damage

take your taste back
peel back your skin
and try to forget how it feels inside
you should try saying no once in a while
oh once in a while
oh once in a while

Sun, 24 Apr 2005 17:39:43 GMT

♥

Fri, 22 Apr 2005 03:00:16 GMT

your a pain in my ass.
♥

you make my heart think sad thoughts.

Tue, 19 Apr 2005 20:25:43 GMT

HES HOOOOOOOOOOOOMMMMMMMMMMMMMMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

dont ever die on me again.
no more underoath for you.

Sun, 17 Apr 2005 03:10:51 GMT

"and if its not too late for coffee, ill be at your house in ten..."

stop dying and come home
i need you so much.

Sat, 16 Apr 2005 02:12:41 GMT

...
so the weekend goes like this
tomarrow hanging out with my lovley tristen bethel
sunday morning church then wedding shopping then out with kara chad and chet.
should be fun

so who's selfish and who's sorry?
Would you believe me if I said I
didn't need you, 'cause I wouldn't believe you if you said the same to me.
Near death, last breath, and barely hanging on. Would you believe me if
I said I didn't need you?
♥

attention, attention, may i have all your eyes and you ears

Thu, 14 Apr 2005 20:17:07 GMT

the show was awesome
in fact the entire day was, except the news awating me when i got home even getting the crap beat out of me and the vomiting in the boys urinal (thank you jessy love)

jack, i love you and you cant die on me. you are so dear to me. i dont know what to say...

its not like it hurts that much anyway
attention, attention, may i have all your eyes and you ears to the front of the room, if only for a second

these are dreams...

Tue, 12 Apr 2005 20:37:44 GMT

... that ive kept
deep inside of me
so sing to me
so i can sleep
sing to me...

♥

a kiss for the pretty emo boy.
love ya kiddo. cant wait to see you this weekend.

hey amanda, where'd you find these crazy boys this time.

Mon, 11 Apr 2005 20:23:02 GMT

ohio realy was for lovers.
we had an grand time.
when we werent at each others throats.

so the rest of this week goes like this
today- what ever happens
tomarrow- community preformance
wednesday- fall out boy/ silverstein
thursday- meh lets not talk about that
friday- party
the weekend- JACK IS HERE!!!!!!!

btw i hate it when we fight. so lets not do it anymore. i love you so dearly kiddo even if things arent always amazing like they are when your here. you are my best friend forever and always. i cant wait to see you again. its been forever.

hey young gracefull, i will teach you...

Wed, 06 Apr 2005 02:05:29 GMT

... and jesus, im ready to come home...

im sorry jack.
i love you kiddo.
ttmab.

Tue, 29 Mar 2005 22:32:43 GMT

yeah so um...

spring break 05
what a great time.

lets play this game, called when you catch fire, i wouldnt piss to put you out.

Wed, 23 Mar 2005 04:19:01 GMT

wow. thats all i can say
things have been so completely amazing.
i cant remember a time ive ever been happier. it seems like for once in my life i feel... right. sigh.

i cant stop smiling.

so this weekend gonna go watch etude and karas party deal and such, then the beach for spring break!!!!!!!!!

Wed, 16 Mar 2005 21:03:31 GMT

i am dying.

hey young gracefull, i will teach you...

Sun, 13 Mar 2005 22:40:46 GMT

life is crazy
i love it.

♥

Fri, 11 Mar 2005 15:30:43 GMT

youve been there for me my whole life. no matter what. i hurt you so bad cause i just wouldnt open up my eyes and see what i had. i thought i had something more and so great but i was wrong, i wasted time that i should have been spending elsewhere. everyone was right. but i was too blind to see that. im sorry. im glad your still here. your such an amazing person.

to do today:
make chandlers birthday cake
make chris's birthday cake
get ready
call jack...ariah
hang out with the kids
have another amazing night with them
take new pictures cause i need some
try to get some sleep before tomarow
buy fall out boy/ silverstien tickets.

rosemary, heaven restores you in life.

Thu, 24 Feb 2005 02:04:16 GMT

im so sorry.

♥ it hurts so bad

it was only a kiss, it was only a kiss...

Tue, 22 Feb 2005 16:03:52 GMT

I never meant to be the needle that broke your back
You were here, you were here, and you were here
~~Don't look back~~

been hanging out with the kids. last night me and kara had some fun and sorry justin, we would have loved for you to come. but hey crap happens. i have to go dress shopping cause my mommy is getting married after all. yeah yeah.
life has been so amazing, maybe its cause the summer is near. hopefully it will be as good as last summer, even though im expecting it to be even better!

dear summer,

i miss you. i tend to catch myself daydreaming about the day i will see you again, you make my days feel so much better. i realy do believe that you are my true love. watching fireworks, the lake house, the movies, and the zimmermans, boys, the mall, car rides and all the singing that comes with them, beaches, sun, road trips, never being in one place for more than 5 hours, the constant digging through drawers and rooms to find gas money, even sometimes guard practice and so many more. we have had some good times and i cant wait to see you agian. you are my best friend and i miss you alot. so please come back to me, and soon.

sincerly,
Alyssa Michelle

you should have left the light on

Mon, 21 Feb 2005 19:42:06 GMT

no more shit.
♥

yeah you should have left the light on.

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Sun, 20 Feb 2005 23:26:46 GMT

florida was fun.
stories later.
i got some company ovah tho so this wont be long.
i know you have missed me so feel free to call.
but now im gonna go watch movies with one of my husbands.

you hurt me. and confuse me.
i need to talk to you later.

and crash the cemetary gates, in the dress your husband hates.

Fri, 18 Feb 2005 03:21:24 GMT

yestarday was great. thanks kids. i love you.
yeh so im going to flordia tomarrow, should be fun. wish our guard luck. even tho i hate them all.
but yeh its gonna be fun, but i still cant wait to get back home afterwards. gettin crunk with some of the kids.
i love the good times we have.
♥

i never made a scene. i didnt have to, i didnt have to.

Wed, 16 Feb 2005 20:59:57 GMT

so today equals secret pal shopping getting my tights and probally gettin crunk with some of the ladies

xoxo

Tue, 15 Feb 2005 21:07:29 GMT

just sitting here listining to my bittersweet lullabies and contemplating everything thats been going on. sometimes were all scared for our sanity, latley its been my turn. im so scared of everyone and everything. including myself.

you kill me
♥